Losing my grip

I dnt hv much cnfidence in my life ,

I feel like I dnt deserve to be with the ppl arnd me ,
thy hv wht they wanted ,
Thyre alwys hppy ,
Good looking faces ,
I know , I dnt hv wht thyve got ,
Thts why I feel prtty much apart frm them ,
BIG dffrences ,

I feel insecure ,

I dnt knw wht to say ,
I hate to be arnd them ,
Im hideous ,
Yes ,
You can lie , its yr prblm
I always think wht theyve got to say abt me ,
I always do ,
Idk why

Insecurities makes me wonder ,

Why do we hv to be feeling tht way ,
Why do guys prefer looks over brains ,
Why ppl talks bad abt us ,
Why they have to be pretty ,
Why they smtimes want to befriend with pretty ones and leave the geeks alone ? ,
Why we need to be out of this feelings ,
Why ppl tell lies abt how we look ?

Idk , I hv no idea ,
I wish I wasnt ugly ,
I wish I wld be better than better-er

I dnt like to be left out different ( in a bad wayyy )

Murta*bark*

"Mamak , murtabak campur satu"
"Aya anney , campur ka ? Coming coming"

Ish kat situ bnyk gila babi lakiii
Mama pulak bkn nk teman turun
Suruh aku pg beli sorang
Pastu nk tnggu tu mcm lama kan
Aku bngok gila pg brdiri situ je
Pastu mamak tu ckp

"Duduk duluu , 5 minit lagi"
"Ok ok"

Laki semua mcm pndng pndng
malu gila
Tktau nk bt apa
Keluar kan phn la bt bt msg
haha mls nk lyn
Pastu ada squid noises
Aku pndng depan kiri kanan
Tgktgk ada laki tu snym
EE gross

Pndng bawah balik , bt tktau
*Tp kawan dia hot*
Haha
Pastu ada bunyik lagi
pndng ah , dua org babai ,
aku terus bgn ,
Tnya mamak

"Dah ke?"
"Baru tgh panas , tunggu aa"
"Ishh"

Lama sikit dah siap ,
terus lari pastu ada org "Eh , byee !"
Aku lari laju lg hahahaha

Bad Habits ? Not , : )

Tremendous? : )

I tend to describe the ppl I saw
Anyone

1-6 : Kids
7-12 : Annying brats
13-17 : When you feel 'Insecure' age
18-30 : I dnt care
31-50 : Hormat aah : )
51-mati : Speechless

I would say =

"ee buruknyaaa prmpn tuu , mcm strippy"
"gross kot , bkn hndsme pn"
"konon je comel , ee gedik"
"rempiiit , okayy , takuttt"
"ish , buruknya , dah la bnyk jerawat batu fresh"
"tgk tetek dia , brjuntai juntai trkeluaa , murah gila jual"
"budak tu annying kan? mcm anak kau"
"ehh , nmpk tk laki dgn prmpn yg rabaraba atas kerusi tu? Gelinyaaa , tkde privacy lgsng"
"OMG , hndsme nyaaa"
"lawa beg diaa , tp muka dia buruk , mcm suntat"

Hehe I say lots of craps ,
and smtimes ,
Ppl hate me fr tht
haha : D
Loserr

I say saying bad things abt ppl are so cool ?
Agree ?
haha

Pole ?

"Dont let age be a factor" - Uncle Awan

I was hvng a drink with my mthr when a friend of her saw us
And hv a little chat

He asked me "What do u want to be when u grw up?"
"Pilot maybe , who knows"
Then "Pilot? Women cant be pilot ,"
"Apa pulak"
And "U'd have to be away frm yr family"
"Yea?"
Said "Maybe a friend passed away , u cldnt attend , a family is giving birth , u cldnt attnd ,
u would miss out those things"
"Hmm"
Later "And it is not suitable fr a beautiful girl like u though"
"*blshing* Ohhhh"
hahahaha


He said "Do u drive yr mother here?"
"Huh? NO?"
Next "U dnt drive?"
"*??* I never ,"
And "Wht do u mean never? When I was yr age , my father teach me how to drive"
"Cool , but she wont let me"
He looks at mama then me "I'll teach u when I hv a free time"
"Really? Okk"
Mama disagree haha
Uncle "Dnt let age be a factor"
Mama "Fine , later later lah"
Nadia "Hehehe"

Bodoh

Danah Alleyne is supported by her brother, Ian Alleyne, president of the T&T Crime Watch Association, during an interview> at his office in Chaguanas yesterday.

“I AM ashamed about what happened. I got carried away in the moment,” sobbed Danah Alleyne, the 15-year-old daughter of Pastor Dave Alleyne of the Flaming Word Ministry of Chaguanas.

Once known just as a pastor’s daughter, Danah has become the focus of international attention, after her steamy dance segment with international singer Akon of Senegal, at Club Zen, which is circulating on the Internet.

Yesterday, a sad and remorseful looking Danah confessed to lying to her parents to go to the concert, but said she had been cajoled (persuaded) into going on stage.

With red, teary eyes, Danah said she had been invited to the concert two days before the event by friends, who are older than she is. She said they bought a VIP ticket for her to gain entry.

Danah said, “My parents had no clue I was going to the concert or how I was dressed. I told them I was going with my cousins for ice cream. When I left the house I had on a jacket.”

Danah said she had called her friends who picked her up outside her home.

When they got to the club last week Thursday, she said, they proceeded to the VIP section but were stopped by the bouncers who said they had to be 21 years and over to enter, and asked for their identification cards.

Danah said, “We did not have it so they told us we had to go into general admission and we did.”

During the concert, she said, Akon asked for five girls to go on stage but no one wanted to.

“Eventually two girls went up. Then all the people around me started rooting for me to go on stage. I hesitated and told my friends I did not want to go up. They eventually drew the attention to me and the white spotlight hit me.”

Danah said Akon’s bodyguard then pulled her up on stage.

“I told him I can’t be here but he told me to stay. I was scared. I was freaking out,” she added.

Akon told the girls that if they won they would go to Africa and she believed him.

“I got carried away. I began dancing with the crowd cheering me on,” Danah said. When she won the dance “competition” and Akon told her he was Africa, she said, “I was shocked, I could not believe it.”

About the heated dance with the superstar, Danah said, “It was three rounds of dancing. First, we danced together. Then, he picked me up…and then next thing I know I was all over the stage.

“I was in shock. When I look at the video now, I cannot believe that all these things happen. It happened so quick.”

Danah said when she finally got off the stage, everyone was telling her she had done “real good.”

She said, “I did not think much of it, like it was no big deal” but, now “I am disappointed in what happened.”

Shaking her head and trying to hold back the tears, she said, “I am sorry I embarrassed my parents and I am ashamed that I lied to them.”

Danah, however, is determined to put experience behind her. “I went to school after the concert and my friends are like, “ ‘We have your back.’”

Danah’s brother, Ian Alleyne, president of the T&T Crime Watch Association, said he was disgusted by what happened. He said, “She is a minor. She should not have been let in the club! Young people must be protected. It is terrible what has happened to her, but her parents are not at fault.”

Lame gila doh prmpn ni ,
dah mmg dia horny , admit je laa hahah