Madame

I found out smthng
Smthng thts out of our mind ,
Heck yea ,

Tht hndsme guyyy ,
We saw at Scrt Rcp on Ayiesha's brthday ,
Wrk at Raoul , KLCC

Story ,

I was thre , accmpanying my mthr to meet her friends ,
While she was talking , I walked arnd the mall alone ,
And mssgd Ayiesha and we met infrnt of New Zealand's Natural
We went to the food court and I ate Mcd
They've had their lunch , so I ate alone

Ayiesha had to leave early * 5.30 kot
so I let them spent their time tgthr ,
And so I continue to walked arnd looking fr clothes alone
Walking , I received a msg frm Zul
He said Ayiesha asked him to search fr me ,
So we walked arnd the mall
And we went to Kino to buy a comic fr Zul

We stopped at a bench
I was busy messaging smone
And sudd ,
I felt like smone's watching me
I looked up and saw this guy gazing at me while folding some shirts
Second glance ,
I 'accidentally' took my hand up and showed at him
mcm "ehhh dia laaa"
He smiled and wave ,
HAHA
I smiled , and his friend looked at me and made a 'wooo' mouth expression
Its funny , actually
Zul mcm "kenapa ?"
Haha , he is so hot ,
I wont and will always visit tht shop

HAHA : D

Yg peliknyaa ,
When I was making my way to Dome
Thre's this group of guys walking at the opposite direction
One of them stop ,
And looked at me ,

he said = "Ehhh Farah ehh ?"
I was like = "Ehh , Tak"
he said = "FARAH KAN ?" * Louder ,
I said = "TAKKK" * Bengang
he said = "Hbs tu sape ?"
I said = "Ee , pape je laa" * walks away

Lawak gila bambus ,
Idk wht was tht ,
But it was SO LAME

I love 18th

Whtvr comes with 18

18 18 18 ,

Imissedhim.
Ireallydo.

Fuck you ,
I always feel like it was all my fault

Struggle

Im doing smthng ,
At least

Imallalonenow ,

I hope it works ,
I hope they love it

Im not a disappointer ,
No , Im not .

Its a no-no world

Bestfriends or Boyfriend ?

Nahh , I dnt see any I-love-my-bestfriends-more-than-my-bf type of prsn anymr ,
Well maybe one or two in a couple of dozens ,

I dnt see why Im not one of them ,
HAHA
Nahh ,
Im more to I-love-my-pets-more-than-anyone type of prsn
I dnt admit I lv my friends more than my bf bcs I dnt feel anythng ,
And I dnt admit things like tht ,
And act the opposite way ,

Dont play dumb ,
We're nice .

If you know you love yr bf more ,
Act like it ,
Dnt pity yr friends ,
Theyve got someone to love too ,
Or to be loved to ,
Dont worry


Dont act ,
Start to be real ,
This is the real world ,
Deal with it .

Dont

Dont try to know me
The more you know me ,
The less you're becoming my friend .

The more you know me ,
The more reasons to hate me .

The more you know me ,
You'll be wondering why you're my friend .

So dont ,
I think you better stop now .

Bye : )

I lead my life better by my own
Not accompanied ,

Am I sppsed to be happy ?

You said Im stupid
I may be ,
But not to be compared with others

I may not be a good perfect 'thing'
But Im still who I am

Its just tht I act more like a grown up
Than you are ,
Whts the prblm with tht ?

You're sucker , I suck less
Dnt compare yrslf with me ,
Im not the one who promised to be one .

ACTION

OHMG
Disastrous

Hahah , maluu wehh

It was 7.30 PM after Maghrib prayers ,
And so my dad said tht we're going out to one of his friend's house
So , yea yea ,
I dressed and we drove all the way to 'Jln Nirwana 3'
Whrever was tht ,
We walked out and there was a bunch of familiar faces
Friends friends ,
Ignoring some faces , I walked arnd to greet them

And there was some losers or as I say rubbish talkers came up and said to my mother
"Is tht yr daughter ?"
"Dah besar dahh"
Idk why I always hated that line
"Lawanyaaa"
So tht put the hate awayy haha

At 830 ,
We ate at a very small dining hall ,
And they invited a group of friends ,
It was veryy cosyyy
I almost choked myself breathing

Mama was talking to one of the aunties there ,
And I was busy rubbing my nose to death ,
( Tht house was veryyyy dustayyy * haha )
So titibe , my mum asked
M = "Your son yg td tu kan ?"
A ="Oh yeaa , I hv 4 children , all boys"
( menarik minat nk dngr : D )
A = "The youngest form 3"
( Hey hey , Im 14 ! haha )
M = "Oh yeaa , the two eldest dah khwn right ?"
A = "Yeaa , (She looks at me) yg youngest tu dah ada gf dahh *laughing*"
I was like "Oh hehe"
A = "His gf looks exactly like you , dia ada tunjuk auntie gmba diaa"
* shocked kjp , but then okayy haha
M = "Yea ? haha trkejut nnt tgk dia ingt gf dia dtg , haha"
Tht was so lameeee ,

And later , we were out of tht stinking dining room
Auntie tu still ckp dgn mama ,
Seconds later ,
Ada one guy dtg kat auntie tu mcm
"Maa , Im going , aaa"
Dia nmpk aku mcm
*EH, I KNW U*
I looked away , and he did too ,
And mcm
"You're going where ?"
"Aa , no , no , tkde mana"
And he was abt to walked away when his mthr called
"Syafiqqq , sini kejap"
Suprising , she introduced me to him
He was smiling and I smiled awkwardly back
And mcm "Hi : )"
HAHAHAH , sumpah aku maluuu
Tarik balik saat ituuuu hahaha
But it was okayy , at least
WAIT , THERE'S MORE
"Doesnt she looked like yr gf ?"
Muka dia terus mcm : O
I think he was embarassed too haha
"Aa ," Speechless and smiled weirdly at me
And gave me a look
Please-understand-my-mum on the face HAHA
But then he went away and sat at one of the sofa
Sumpah aku rasa mcm nk bunuh mak dia
hahahahaha

We were changing glances quite a few times
Then masa nk balik ,
He was already at the frnt door
So I walked out *I thought my mum was behind me*
But she wasnt , she was talking lagiiii dgn org unknwn
I cant turned around and go to my mum ,
Well tht must hv been so obvious ,
haha
I walked out and wore my shoes
And titibe
"Srry psl td , dia mmg mcm tu"
"Oh ok"
SILENCEEEE
"Btl ke gf u muka mcm I ?" * Idk why I asked him tht
"Oh *weird* Ex gf sbnrnya , hmm , yea sikit"
"*blushed sikit kot* Heh ok"
Then our parents keluar jgk
Then kat gate , ckp lagiii
Dnt they actlly feel tired or smthng ?
Hish
So lastly diorg actually said GOODBYE to each othr
And he said bye to me too
Grrh , geram
HAHA


More gathering please ! HAHA

( " _ )

My emotion strangled me up ,
Tight , and tighter

This is not who I am ,

I've got the remote half an hour bfr ,
BUT
Who stole it ?


Im weak



No , stop .
I hv to stop .

Im not wrecked

Show me

NO .


The only way to impress me is to know me ,

Not only by knowing my fav food , choc , or car ,
Knowing my feelings , my problems

I bet you dnt even knw wht I like to hear abt ,
Where my fv places to hang arnd ,
NO , YOU DONT .

You were wrong by your first impression ,
Tore it ,
Jot this on your butt ;
I DONT LIKE GUYS WHO KNOWS ONLY THE OUTER ME

No , change it
; I DNT LIKE YOU TOO MUCH BCS YOU'RE ACTING NOW

Get me ,
Get you ,
Get them ,
Get evryone ,
Just to know them and to love .


Dont just care bcs Im still with u ,
Worry when I'll be leaving u ,
Undrstnd how to deal with it .

Im still here ,
To know ,
"Why you didnt care ?"

I tried to grab the answer ,
Crawling under , running searching ,
BUT ,
I just realized ,
Its not why , Its that "YOU JUST DONT"

You're proud of hving smone to be with ,
To show off to all yr fckng friends ,
To cuddle and snog you ,

But you dnt undrstnd me ,
Or even trying to know me ,


Thats why I love Shamil ,
He cares ,
He does .

Why make smone special leave us so fast ?

Hooligans

Afraid of my weaknesses

I DONT KNOW HOW TO BE 'IT'

Stars

I pleaded and whispered "You cant die; I need you"



"So many voices and nothing is there, but the ghost of you asking me "Why , why did I leave?""

See(?)

Its not my job ,
Dont be fucked up

I care I do I do ,

Not saying its wrong ,
But its , * sigh
Nothing ,
Do it then
Hell dnt care abt wht I think
Or others too ,
Just do
Wht you wnt to

LOMPAT

TELL ME WHY

I cant fly ?

HAHA annoyance

And

Thats why I leave you for the girl next door , : )

Why guys

1 ) needs to flirt for a living and why not making money selling old junks for a mini coop ?
2 ) just couldnt stop flirting and do smthng else like baking ?
3 ) doesnt like fat girls with big round fancy gassy butt ?
4 ) want to hv a relationship going on rather than wtching MTV all day long ?
5 ) likes to break girls heart without noticing it ?
6 ) doesnt know how to appreciate things even by giving them cookies ?
7 ) said showing u love them is by giving "french kisses and etc" ?
8 ) hv a big ego and go emo ( * haha ) ?
9 ) always hope tht the girls will make the first move and they will sit there and wait ?
10 ) are so stupider-er than homer ?

BAPAKK K K KK : O

There's an open house ( again and again ) ,
my father's friend ,
SHIT he's so FUKING rich dohhh

He bought a land at Tmn Tar
which is = RM 3 000 000

He build a new house
overall which is = RM 4 000 000

HAH , WTH IS THT MANNN ?

Rumah dia mcm effin cool ,
Kalah any resort 5 stars ( seriously ! )

Ada = yoga room , sauna , pool , av room , jam room , shoe room , etc.

FUCK , haha I so love the pool ,
rasa nk trjun okayyyyyyyyy ,
GRRH

Dah la uncle tu mcm ordinary guy ,
no datuk , no tan sri , tak labeled
But mcm lg kaya dr all those tan sris and craps
haha

DIA ADA ANAK BAYA AKU ,
haha okay finee
Im not a golddiggahhhh
: D
He was married to a converted Indochina woman

My dad said uncle dpt salary 500 thousand a month ,
tp auntie tu mmg kayaaa ,
smthng psl fthr dia lahh ,
tk phm
haha

AND THERES MOREEE ,
Uncle tu ada
= Lamborghini
= Ferrari

Ada lg , but I didnt saw the others ,
kena sorok kat rumah sblh
HAHA

AND hahahah
dia ada honeymoon suite fr the guest kot
tp dia nk build a guest house la plk kat sblh rumah dia ,
aku sukaaaa
hahahaha

ANND AND
dia dah plan nk build rumah untk anakanak dia jgk
FCK en ? ISNT THT THE COOLEST PARENTS EVER ?
hahah okay fine

Heh ,

CUTE or comel ?

To MG ,
Its not just a normal word ,
In different language ,

Theres a meaning

I've been getting keras and keras all dayyyyyy ,
Eat at dffrnt houses ,
Perghhhh : O

Tmrrw's the day ,
The day fr the mission ,
I cant stand it ,
I cant wait fr long ,

BYE : )
HV FUN : )

O

I didnt know wht to say
I didnt know how to react
I didnt know wht to think

But I just said " OMG(!) "

Its not tht I dnt like it ,
Its jst tht one of my friend who did it ,

OK FINE ,
I dnt like it either .

Whts the diffrnce of doing it quickly and longer ?
I dnt get it .
I just dont .

IM SHOCKED ,
fucking shocked .

I hope , I fucking hope its not true though ,

STAIRS DAY ( ! )

Accompanied Amnd && Flq dating at the fire escape stairs : )
* fr one whole freaking dayyy *

Ayiesha felt sick , haha
( feeling 'ZUL' sick )
HAHA dahsyat(!)

What Zafeeq said :

"scandal" = tak cpl tp mcm cpl je , klua tghtr semua , and so on * memory loss *

What I said :

"scandal" = Its a player job

He said = TAK

Conclusion = 'whtvr' ? : )

HEADLINE ; "He has been single fr 4 years"
( shocking ? )
: Agak

AYIESHA's STORY

She was dumbstruck ,
Bcs Khalis was there ,
hahahaha ,
She was going like
"Omg malunyaa , maluu"
"Tk blh nk tgrrrr !"
"Comel"
And then it went on like this ;

We were banging the door
when I realized Khalis gave us the cant-you-guys-see-what-Im-doing? look
*He was reading a Chemistry book (if im nt mstaken)*
I ran away ,
Then , Ayiesha looked at him , and he is too ,
They were both ---- ( cricket sings )
HAHA merepek
Ayiesha : "Hello (!)"
Khalis : "Hi (?) *weird look*"

Then she ran and bang her head twice
once : kat dinding
scnd : kat pintu

And cry herself with pain
HAHAHA APA AKU CKP NIIII ?

My story *

They were saying smthng abt comics
When I was talking abt our names (shasha , didi , dada , etc.)
Smone asked me ;

A : Comic apa awak selalu baca ?
N : DADA ( tht was actually amanDA's name )

Semua mcm wide eyes staring kat aku
HAHA maluuuu disastrous
Muka zafeeq paling tkleh bla ,
mata dia trbeliak gilaaaa ,
hahahah : D

CHUCKY
1st : Nadia
2nd : Amnda

Bdh en ,
Ada ke dia pg pnggl aku dgn amanda
Chucky 1 , Chucky 2 ,
ANNOYANCE

One thing fr sure ,
Zafeeq mmg best , easy to get a long with aa ,
tkde meaning lain :D

PERIOD PAIN

Lelaki dah tuka hormone !
BODOHHHH ,

BI pulak tuu ,
go to nerakaaaaaaaaaaa ,
I hate youuuuu fr god sake !

The Girl

She made us felt guilty

Towards what we told her ,
What we advised her ,

Its not that we're imposting her ,
Its not that we're changing her ,
Its just some options to her solutions.

Sometimes ,
I dont even feel like I'm her friend
Not knowing what runs through her mind
When she's crying or staring out the window
Or even when she needs to be alone

Once , she wrote in a paper
Saying things about people around her are changing her
Making her to be someone different ,

WE DIDN'T

We're just giving her options ,
And the decision is hers ,

I do care now ,


( Just fr now though, : D )

HUJAN

Weekends = OPEN HOUSE(S)

This week = 6 houses

ALL OF IT = FAT FAT FAT

Oh my god ,
Im going to faint.

Shahirah's Open House ,
= Amanda , Ndr , Fthn , Izyan , Zati

Ayiesha emo , haha
I called her asking fr Fatihin's nmbr ,
She kept saying tht "diorg tk dtg laa , diorg komplot tk nk dtg"
Im confused
haha

We called her ( stop kat tepi jln rayaaa *diorg mmg bodoh* haha )
ALL = "SORRRRRRYYYYY"
ME = "KITORANG GEMBIRAAAAAAA"
haha ,

There was Fthn's exbuifren HAHA
I TON BELIB SHI KOPELED WIS HIM
haha , try it

Mak Shahirah marah kitorang bising bising jerit jerit
* tetamu bnyk wehhh haha *
Aku Malu

HAHA