MG , : )

Confession? Well , I guess Im nt the only one who hv this guilty concious insecure feelings , haha : )
Halfway there , well we spit it out anywy , strted out weird , but when they strted to tell things tht I myself experienced and feel , I spit it out somehow.

We doesnt hv much in common ,
different attitude ,
different looks ,
different style ,
different feelings ,
different story ,
but we hv somethng , tht is the
same confessions : )

We had this conversation , like we always do ,
and all of a sudden , Nadira confessed ,
and then it was Ayiesha , and myself
Thts when Elydia came and heard abt it ,
We all confessed , at least I was shocked

We didnt know how , after all this while
it was locked up inside ,
those feelings and thoughts ,
but it slipped out easily ,
very easy

Do u ever feel smthng tht is so special tht u never had seen it all this while?
I've felt it , but hey , I've seen it now : )
I'll nvr waste on him , like what I did to Shamil
No one knew wht I did to him the night before he died ,
I wish I could take tht back , at least ,
just to see him one last time ,
thts fair enough , isnt it?
Guilty , guilty
Hey , Im srry

Chaos HAHA

Today is so not a day of mine , haha FUCK ,
Psst , Ive found smthing , tht I did it myself ,
without noticing , its the truth in the real world these days : )

He's such a sweet talker , but inside , hes's smthing what I call nothing

kan kan kan kan ?
At least , it does mean smthing to me HAHA
unless u hv a hard cold heart ,
thre , Ive done it , haha ok whtvr : )


Ive had a very annoying day today
with the red devil eyes of mine haha
Imagine , my geo teacher staring at my eyes *lama gila
he is so annoying , so , cngrts haha
and he asked "mata awak tu kenapa? sakit ye?"
and I ignored him haha kesian dia
knw wht he said the last time

fatihin : "cikguuu! anak cikgu manaa"
ckgu : "* kekeliruan"
shahirah : "ANAK CIKGU MANA?!"
ckgu : "anak saya hello kitty ,"
kami : "*gelakgelakgelak*"

BAPAK ASSHOLE ANNOYING ,
haha seriously ,
da la hr tu main takraw tendang tendang bola kena * tuttt *
haha depan semua prmpuan , mmg best hahaha

anywys , bck to my story haha
We were hving a chat at the front door of 2B
when Johan called Nadira , so we continue chatting
sddnly , Elena called "Nadiaaa!"
I trned and walked out when she said "** ajak kluaa , "
tibatiba klua , ** larilari and out of sight
GELI GILA

sddnly , Nadira jeritjerit * while holding a piece of paper *
showing it to me , I was like "huh? *blur haha"
Nadira mcm "** bg awk ni la bdh!"
pastu Boom , Amanda , semua da terkejut gila baboons

Nadia : *shocked* almost had a heart attack , thnks haha
"lariiiiiii! ee geli! gila! ee! gelinyaa! yuck yuck!"
* terus nangis ketakutan *

Shitness , they unfold the paper and read
I was sitting nxt to Amanda
crying fearfully , haha
IDK wht he wrote , but I told fatihin

"ckp kat dia kita taknak reply , jst give a grin fr a sympathy hahahahaha"


Bad day , haha lcky me I wont be going to schl tmrrw ; )

*H

14th July


Klcc , thts whre I went , whre else ? : )
with one of my annoying friend , ayiesha BAHAHA
anywys , thre were so many ppl thre [as always] bt thre were so many ppl I knw frm myspace , to seniors and juniors , pergh , belok kanan nmpk senior , belok kiri nmpk junior , tgk depan bdk myspc , haha uncmfrtable gila and so on , we wtchd hrry pttr at 1.50 , and ayiesha was like "omg kita harap tkde bddk yg kitorang kenal kt dlm" and thnk god thre wasnt [I think haha] tell me smthng hotter than : guy who sits beside me was so hot and smells good HAHA I wasnt even 110% concentrating on the movie not until Draco Malfoy turns up : () yes , we were freaks tht day , haha ye aa , cnth aa kan: masa prfssr trelawney punya scene tu an , blkg tu ada draco an , pastu nadia : "ayiesha ayiesha! *tnjk tnjk draco*" ayiesha : "omg omg!" both : "heee! heee! (screaming silently haha)" oh yea , bck to tht guy , he was hot but not beyond and ayiesha said : "kang dia tegur awk tk denga doww" pastu nadia : "*mnggelabah kejap* ala tkpee, jual mahal jual mahal" BAHAHA oh whtvr , then the movie ended , and sddnly jln through the entrance nk exit an , sddnly nmpk *h , haha lydia sukaa , okay fine he was hotter outside and not in the picture and hotter than *K haha whtvrrr : )

AND while I was waiting fr my brthr to pick me up , I saw Syafiq, Shamil's friend , hes nt tht bad , nymmy aa : D I lv Kingsley's line when he said to Fudge "u may not like him but u've got to admit , Dumbledore's got style" haha smthng like tht : ) At 6.30 , we went to Putrajaya fr a wedding ceremony , and was searching fr the mosque , u can say tht we're in a state where we need directions bcs we're lost haha then we saw a policeman's car so we stoppd nxt to it and said to take us to the mosque so he was like "baiklah , ikut kami ye encik" so we went on and I said "gila ahh , kena escort tuuu! hahahah" and the others was like laughing hysterically evnthough Im not quite sure if its tht funny , haha : ) thts just it , annoying day after anthr haha BAI

Those Days

I missed them :

• Shamil
• tht guy who used to talk to me abt evrythng last year

Why do we hv to lose the person we put too much hopes and trust on very quickly? Whts the sin of us to feel happy and comfrtable all the time? I hope they were still by my side eventhough theyre not here anymre , I hope Allah made my prayers come true and blessed Shamil with love frm us down here , whrever he is now , I knw tht hes happy as he is always happy down here.

Shamil

Hes the one who lit the light to my dark and empty world , he shared his dreams like no other did.
He lift up my hopes to be alive until this very day , hes the only guy I know whos sincere and nvr made me feel used.
He listens to all my prblms and burdens and help me to find a way to solve it he nvr told me to 'shut up' ,
but I knw no one would do tht but he nvr feel bored to listen and he always keeps me feel safe in evry other ways.
He checked on me if I didnt msg him fr a day or two , just to make sure I said the word "Im fine" , hw I wished he
was still here , I missed his words and voice , I missed those calls and advices , I missed those stories and tales ,
I missed the laughter and snort , I missed how he made me laugh , I missed him a lot. Who can ever replace him?
No one I knew ever said or do anythng similar to wht he did , and now I nvr frget to thnked Allah fr wht he gave me
all this while I nvr really appreciate it.





*F

Hes the laugh I had last year , I only needed him evryday at schl to make my days perfect , but as he grew more mature
hes not anymre the same as last year , not anymre the guy I knew whos funny and easy to talk to last year . He told me
almost evrythng abt his prblms and stuff , he nvr failed to put a smile on me , even a small grin , but now it doesnt feels
the same eventhough smtimes he does make me happy but not with a big smile on my face . Jealousy , Farah? Wth do I care?
No , Im not jealous.

* Tell me what makes her so much better than me (so much better than me)
What makes her just everything I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was me

And now you don't feel the same
I remember you would shiver everytime I said your name
You said nothing felt as good as when you gaze into my eyes
Now you don't care I'm alive
How did we let the fire die

Srry , I knw its not the same but some words in it makes me annoyed HAHA Last year , we used to hv some good times together , after school , and the conversation we used to had , u met me at schl , and accompany me whrever I go , and talk abt things tht happend, one of yr friend said u used to like me last year fr as long as u knw me , I can see tht , u tried to tell but u cover it up with lies , why? Its not tht bad , but hey I miss u , I mean the old u. : )

Counseling

Well, I do knw how to appreciate now : ) thnks to whoever who made me like this , back again , smtimes I do wonder whyy people wanted to be dbletiming , when u could admit that u do have the most tremendous guy everr : ) yea getting a byfrnd is easy , u can say that , but hving one that loves u more than anythng else is not , so why bother hving anthr?

Experience of being dbletiming is not fun , not exactly the word tht I was searching fr though , but they do can gave u a lot of burdens and troubles , u love it , bcs u get the thrill of being loved but u'd might be giving smone a severe heartbreak HAHA one of them , perhaps.

Some fools in my class [haha] made this one 'counseling' session , u give the topics [mostly abt their bfs] , we'll debate it or what I can say is solve it the way it should be by many heads and opinions frm the circle and boy , it was fun to be heard its like Shamil was still thre **silence* sayy , but just now , I do realize just how much Ive been through all this time and it was pleasurable to share it together wht u've been through.

Oh yea I read an article in NST abt this one girl who's 17 [but she said she was just 16 haha] hv wrote 2 books , including her first one last year when she was just 15 [the real age HAHA] and sddnly I was thinking of writing one myself , dnt u think its great to hv one of yr own and share it with the other part of the world? Hmm ? : ) I'll think abt it later , but fr now.

IM OUT : D

pure loser

Cheng Cheng Cheng : ) * dia buat suara comel bahaha okay fine jst cut it off : D

DUDE , my bm teacher said "you're a loser if u hv a friend like *HER"
we had this gossiping session in the library di mana kita sepatutnya mebaca! Dnt put the blame on us , we just had this one coolio teacher tht makes us wanted to burst it all out abt that fugly bitch who thinks shes all perfect and so we named her as *barbie. Im not a girl who always hv a prblm of getting along with ppl but I just hv a big huge giant problem dgn pelacur tu [too bad shes a whore]

What I heard on tv :

Question : "A guy with many partners , we called them thugs , but what do we call a woman with many partners?"
Answer : "Too bad , shes a whore"
*audience laughing and clapping* : D

Well , guess who answered tht question? okay fine , I dnt knw tht too but jst give a wild guess on how old is she?
*60 years old woman with fully white hair HAHA thts a critical age and she should be dying by now haha but I do agree with her as much as I hate yr knickers [its teru (bm spelling fr true) haha] So to make things worst , lets list out the attitude we all hate abt barbie.

Facts that we hate abt her :


* shes a whore and u've got to admit
* admitting tht shes perfect all the time
* talks bad abt ppl [even her bestfriends and her mother]
* proud of her bad doings
* wht she said is always right
* completely and provenly rude * da la lawan ustazah tu namanya derhaka
* thinks shes popular
* spread false rumors abt us to the seniors
* said tht no one hates her
* bckstabber
* said tht she can own anyone
* made up stories so tht ppl doesnt look at her as a failure
* making love with all the guys she knws
* said tht shes a model and hv a great shape of body [which to us looks like a walking stick]
* thinks she hv the greatest voice , *padahal apa yg aku dngr hanyalah sekadar jeritan

okay , Im blank fr a moment we'll cntinue this later and after haha wth?
anywys , she dsnt realize it tht evrybdy almost evrybdy hates her
but the HAVE to pretend and lie bcs once she starts to hate u ,
u wont hv a perfect life u alwys wanted
but knw wht?
WE DONT CARE

Cherating

Skipped school fr a couple of days fr a holiday in Cherating : ) I had fun holiday-ing with the rest of my family fr 3 days and 2 nights if im not mistaken haha : D we were hving so much fun, we drove to cherating early in the morning [7 am] frm our house and all the way to cherating and we arrived there around, mm 3 smthing i think bcs we stop at a friend of my dad's house and my auntie's house and some stall or whtvr it is called : D the place was superb so we checked in the hotel

We took some beautiful photos too , and ofcourse we took it at the beach , it was pretty beautiful with the sceneries and all : ) We played volleyball and soccer together , and we [my mum, sis and I] won both games haha I scored a goal by using my hands HAHA thts what I call handball haha we had fun but the ppl thre was pretty lousy haha srry to say tht : D here's the story , we stopped by a kopitiam stall smwhre in kemaman and mama asked me to follow here , so I did , just to buy some coffee or whtsoever , we crossed the road and when I walked in thre , it was just like any other kopitiam stall but the workers are so patetek! SUMPAH TAK TIPU! I looked at the kitchen and thres this one guy waving in my direction so I ignored then he kept waving and smiling and I was like "apehal mamat tu? sumpah gross" so I looked behind me just to make sure tht Im not being over reacting haha and so I wasnt HAHA I looked away and thres another guy looking at me and gave me a 'hi, aku nk rogol kau muahahaha' smile I was so scared sumpah tak tipu gilaaa, ee scary sial then I looked at mama and mama was searching fr smthing tht I dnt knw wht so I was like "cepat laaa, panas la kat sinii" then the one who was talking to my mum looked and me and smiled innocently so I smile back , when mama wanted to pay at the cashier I wait at fr her at the back , suddenly the one who was talking to my mum just now came and smile widely , I turned and wait for my mum outside the stall HAHA sumpah annoying

What am I going to do or buy fr her this friday? 6th of July , its my mum's brthday , oh mak godd , Im so blankkk , please at least give me some ideas wht to do or buy fr her? Haha aku da la pokaii , haih MATI : F