Lost

Hahahahahahahhaha ?
Ceh over doh : )
Okayy , Im spitting my stories

I went to this one shop (19th Aug)
nk beli this one thing la en ,
I was with my mother ,
and then we went to the thing's side la en
I was checking out some stuff when two helpers of tht shop came to us
and one of them said "ah yea? can I help u?"
I was like "Hmm , whtvr" haha , seriously , I hv no mood
then the other guy was like laughing and smiling and looking at me
I was like 'okaaaay , whos dat freak?' , den baru aku seda
I used to like tht guy bfr HAHA and then ,
we (mum and I) talked to the guy who was consulting us
the other guy tu mcm tk hbshbs muncul kat situ senyumsenyum
I was like 'ee annying la pulak en?' den mcm nk byr tu en
my mum said "okay wait here , Im going to the bank"
so I stayed there dkt dpn cashier and kakak cashier tu snyum lebar kat aku
hahaha and so I smiled * tibatiba ada mood * , den kakak tu ckp kat the other guy yg asyik sibuk tu en
"haa , try aa skrg , aku suka nk tgk kau try skrg" and tht guy was saying smthng like "susah la , tanak tanak"
den I turned around and mcm buatbuat tgk brg padahal pndng dat guy
den he saw me , den dia snyum , snyum je la en , speechless ,
pstu tibatiba he walked to me and said "mmg suka pets eh?"
when I came to think of it , soalan tu mcm tk patut lngsng HHAHA
and then I said "hah ? tah biasa je"
and den he said "oh," pastu dia senyum den bla kat kakak cashier tu balik
den laki sorang lg yg help kita tu dtg , den pg kat diorg , den snyumsnyum gelakgelak
ANNYING SNGT KAN haha
pastu kakak tu mcm ckp "kau ni tahpapetah blablabla" tktau kat sape
den mama dtg nk byr en
abg tu ckp "bnyk shppng kak?" smthng like tht lah , which I dnt even care
pastu kakak tu bt muka mcm 'hekeleh saje je en kau'
haha I dnt knw wht they're up to

so thts it haha : )
u wont undrstnd , (cerita tk cmplete)
haha : D

Dirty Little Secret ?

Whore whore whore
Haha , as bad as I am ,
I dont expect one of my friend ,
would spit the same thing too : 0

Well , its not that little fr a secret ,
haha , I would take it as a big one
Bcs ,
Without trust , friendship is nothing ,
well thts what I heard ,
but I dont know what to believe
well , I chose not to believe
But hell , I dont care
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Psst , I cant stand tht kind of person ,
Well , not her , but her attitude
ITS PISSING ME OFF ,
and yes , I do mean it
and smtimes if you think I dont apologise ,
Its not that its me ,
but smtimes I think I dnt want to ,
useless apologies ,
Srry but its true , yea : )

Smtimes I wonder why people especially our bestfriends ,
expect us to be more kind , care , share secrets with them
Its not like we're going to be bstfrnds for , yea , forever
HAHAHAHA
Idntknow if ayiesha's going to read this ,
but its true ,
and I mean what I mean ,
MIHIKHIKHIKHIK

I dnt want to care ,
I dnt want to be there ,
I dnt want to forgive ,
I dnt want to forget ,
I dnt want to say sorry ,
I dnt want to be here ,
I dnt want to share ,
I dnt want to play ,
I dnt want to pay ,
I dnt want to say ,
I dnt want to change ,

Bcs thts who I am ,
And not even anyone ,
knows what I really do feel ,

Thts why people say this world is like a stage ,
everyone is acting , everythng is fake ,

Gudebai love : )

Oh Memories

Prik prik prik ,
Whre are u honey?
We're here , waiting
And now you've ran away ,
I misssss youuuuuuu : )

HAHA
Shut up , I know
I hate it when smone told me to shut up
*AYIESHA*
Thanks : ) haha
I hate u so much whore


hish , I miss being in tht class
I miss how my days are always briighten up by tht guy
I miss the memories
I miss those smiles
I miss the chaos
I miss tht day
I miss the whore
I miss tht paper
I miss his voice
I miss your calls
I miss my friends
I miss the frnt door
I miss piggy
I miss those airoplanes
I miss his face
I miss his hair
I miss his smell

Need I say more? or thts it?
Srry , haha

Oh yeaaaa , I remember the day tht was almost turns out to be such a chaos
I was pissed * by my agama and science paper marks , how amanda said he was strict , and tht whore pontianak mengandung tgh pantang bitch * and so I was not myself tht time only tht time : )
So I wrote on a piece of paper and said " pfft pfft pfft " haha
* I dnt wnt to be so obvious *
SO I paste it on the wall , the wall outside our temporary class
where anyone and everyone could see
And at first , I wrote his name , but I think twice
and rub it and wrote smthng else tht refers to him
and I leave it there ,
WHEN SUDDNLY
Our PE teacher asked us to line up outside
so we did but in a scattered-all-over-the-place kinda line up
and she was blabla-ing smthng tht I dnt give a hell abt
Sddnly , his class went outside to go smwhre * I think *
and thres this one girl went there and read tht paper out loud
when he who I mention was at the front door and heard abt it and went there
And thts when Amanda called me when I heard " bla aa wei "
I was like 'asal mcm kenal ayat tu?' , so I turned and without a chance to see who's there,
Amanda take me to the staircase and ran downstairs and was like "OMG OMG DIA BACA DIA BACA"
I was so scared I was so scared I was so scared
Serious shit , it was not funny
And suddnly Ayiesha ran dwnstairs and said things like
"OMG dia baca and dia pndng kita mcm nk mkn awk tau, nnt dia ingt kita yg tulis semua tu, kita taknakk, awk pnya salah laa"
And let me ask u smthng 'wht the hell is wrong to cover yr bstfrnd's mistake?'
OK so whtvr , I didnt care anywy and ran back upstairs , and thre was nobody
and Ayiesha startd saying , oh yea , more like shouting , the same thing outside the class
when sddnly he walked out of the class with his two friends
and he looked at me straight in the eye
and hell wht do I hv to do?
I stared back and tried to said smthng to ayiesha
but words didnt came out
not a single fcking thing
and at last , she stopped and turn and walk back in the class
* and I think thts when she realised there's him at the back *
I said nothing and walked behind her
I was panic all day long
Started to think tht he would strangle or murder me?
HAHA but he did nothing
And blame the wrong person
tht is also one of my best-whore-friend

HELL , it was so scary : )

MG , : )

Confession? Well , I guess Im nt the only one who hv this guilty concious insecure feelings , haha : )
Halfway there , well we spit it out anywy , strted out weird , but when they strted to tell things tht I myself experienced and feel , I spit it out somehow.

We doesnt hv much in common ,
different attitude ,
different looks ,
different style ,
different feelings ,
different story ,
but we hv somethng , tht is the
same confessions : )

We had this conversation , like we always do ,
and all of a sudden , Nadira confessed ,
and then it was Ayiesha , and myself
Thts when Elydia came and heard abt it ,
We all confessed , at least I was shocked

We didnt know how , after all this while
it was locked up inside ,
those feelings and thoughts ,
but it slipped out easily ,
very easy

Do u ever feel smthng tht is so special tht u never had seen it all this while?
I've felt it , but hey , I've seen it now : )
I'll nvr waste on him , like what I did to Shamil
No one knew wht I did to him the night before he died ,
I wish I could take tht back , at least ,
just to see him one last time ,
thts fair enough , isnt it?
Guilty , guilty
Hey , Im srry

Chaos HAHA

Today is so not a day of mine , haha FUCK ,
Psst , Ive found smthing , tht I did it myself ,
without noticing , its the truth in the real world these days : )

He's such a sweet talker , but inside , hes's smthing what I call nothing

kan kan kan kan ?
At least , it does mean smthing to me HAHA
unless u hv a hard cold heart ,
thre , Ive done it , haha ok whtvr : )


Ive had a very annoying day today
with the red devil eyes of mine haha
Imagine , my geo teacher staring at my eyes *lama gila
he is so annoying , so , cngrts haha
and he asked "mata awak tu kenapa? sakit ye?"
and I ignored him haha kesian dia
knw wht he said the last time

fatihin : "cikguuu! anak cikgu manaa"
ckgu : "* kekeliruan"
shahirah : "ANAK CIKGU MANA?!"
ckgu : "anak saya hello kitty ,"
kami : "*gelakgelakgelak*"

BAPAK ASSHOLE ANNOYING ,
haha seriously ,
da la hr tu main takraw tendang tendang bola kena * tuttt *
haha depan semua prmpuan , mmg best hahaha

anywys , bck to my story haha
We were hving a chat at the front door of 2B
when Johan called Nadira , so we continue chatting
sddnly , Elena called "Nadiaaa!"
I trned and walked out when she said "** ajak kluaa , "
tibatiba klua , ** larilari and out of sight
GELI GILA

sddnly , Nadira jeritjerit * while holding a piece of paper *
showing it to me , I was like "huh? *blur haha"
Nadira mcm "** bg awk ni la bdh!"
pastu Boom , Amanda , semua da terkejut gila baboons

Nadia : *shocked* almost had a heart attack , thnks haha
"lariiiiiii! ee geli! gila! ee! gelinyaa! yuck yuck!"
* terus nangis ketakutan *

Shitness , they unfold the paper and read
I was sitting nxt to Amanda
crying fearfully , haha
IDK wht he wrote , but I told fatihin

"ckp kat dia kita taknak reply , jst give a grin fr a sympathy hahahahaha"


Bad day , haha lcky me I wont be going to schl tmrrw ; )