Losing my grip

I dnt hv much cnfidence in my life ,

I feel like I dnt deserve to be with the ppl arnd me ,
thy hv wht they wanted ,
Thyre alwys hppy ,
Good looking faces ,
I know , I dnt hv wht thyve got ,
Thts why I feel prtty much apart frm them ,
BIG dffrences ,

I feel insecure ,

I dnt knw wht to say ,
I hate to be arnd them ,
Im hideous ,
Yes ,
You can lie , its yr prblm
I always think wht theyve got to say abt me ,
I always do ,
Idk why

Insecurities makes me wonder ,

Why do we hv to be feeling tht way ,
Why do guys prefer looks over brains ,
Why ppl talks bad abt us ,
Why they have to be pretty ,
Why they smtimes want to befriend with pretty ones and leave the geeks alone ? ,
Why we need to be out of this feelings ,
Why ppl tell lies abt how we look ?

Idk , I hv no idea ,
I wish I wasnt ugly ,
I wish I wld be better than better-er

I dnt like to be left out different ( in a bad wayyy )