Hari /

We never force you too


It seems like a hard thing
A very hard thing

I cant believe it
Nor can I accept it

No no , I can
Hah

Once , I was lame
Hard to admit , I am still a bit lame now too ( Duh )
Hahah

Im still wondering
How can I be a friend ?
How can they not be ?

Nahhh , merepek


I just cant believe that you could have said that
Said such a thing
"It seems a little harsh dont you think ?"

Now
Its my turn

-

Sorry I ignored you

Thn

We're not drifting apart

Its just that ,
We started thinking differently
Acting differently

We hv different point(s) of view now

Maybe some of us couldnt accept that
Or maybe they just dont want to

Why ?

I dnt knw

Shit Shot

Its not like I want everythng you have
Im not a stealer

Bapakkkk Ah

I hate him
To the level where I want him gone

He's done a lot
So I admit

But he's just so , full of ego
YES

Tah lah
Susah ,
He thinks he's always right
Evrybdy else ?
Can go right to hell -----

OH

When we had that talk yesterday
I felt , so sad

I misjudged evrythng easily

Im not asking you guys to like them
I just want you guys to change yr point of view too

Not all of them are lame
Just some

Im not denying that they're still sometimes a loser , out of fashion sense ,
Lame , poyo gila nk jd wannabe(s)
But they still hv this side , yg telah disorokkan -_- , that I like
They're nice ?
Yeah , smthng like that

Just put aside who they are outside
Even first impression(s)

YES
I just realized

But thank god , they're not as bad as rempit(s)
Agree ?
Hahahaha

Idk
I really think I misjudged them that bad
Im ashamed of myself

Haha

And sometimes I think that
I really hv to know how does it feels like
To befriend with ppl like that

I mean ,
Like them

Sbb kalau jd masuk MRSM (haha gelabah nk besar -_-)
Do you think that there are still ppl yg tak lame
Good fashion sense ?
Sama interest dgn aku ?
Heck yeah ,

Scene 1
N : (tgh baca cleo mag or whtvr)
Kwn mrsm 1 : Eh awak baca apa tu
N : Oh cleo
Kwn mrsm 1 : Apa ? Keliur ?
N : Pape je lah kau

IM NOT MEAN
BUT ITS THE TRUTH

This Is Me HAHAHAH

I dnt knw
But lately , I've been sensitive
I hate easily
No , seriously

I take things too seriously
I see things differently

I dnt blame my friends
If they say Im changing
Bcs I am

Im changing to the scary side of me
Where sometimes Im nice
And sometimes I can be too quite

I dnt knw why Im like this

I had nightmares all the time
I dnt knw

Maybe I am changing to a boring person
I know

Im tired of myself too
I dnt blame them
Im helpless

I thought she'd understand it
When I told her that
But it seems like
She doesnt

?

Heh

Sakit Hati En ?

Aku tak suka org pndg aku mcm tu


Apa kau ingt aku nak sngt dia punya ?
Aku nk sngt rampas semua ?

Ada otak bukak aa besarrr
Jgn kolot sngt
Pikir jgn bodoh sngt

Salah aku ke kalau dia mmg dah tknk suka kau skrg ?
Salah aku ke kalau kau kena tinggal besok ?

HAH ?

TAKKKKKKKKK
Aku tak rasa bersalah langsung

Sbb aku tak rasa aku bt salah
Aku nk kwn
Aku dpt jd kwn

Tp aku tak rasa aku over
Korang boleh rasa aku ni mcm babi

Tp kenapa ?
Kenapa kena ?
Kenapa kena ckp maybe aku sbb semua bnda ni ?

Kenapa tak blh ckp
"Maybe jd mcm tu sbb ---- suka sakitkan hati ----"

Kenapa aku yg kena ?
Sbb aku layan ---- sampai mcm tu ?
SALAH KE MASALAHNYA ?

Eventhough korang tk admit
Aku tau korang still pikir ada possibility jgk

Korang yg bodoh
Suka jump to conclusions
Serious

Tah lah
Benda ni bukan baru
Tp aku still tak puas hati

Hmm

Kenapa kena ?

Don't differentiate yourself with other(s)
Jgn la ingt kau bagus sngt

Tak payah nk malukan org in public
You dont like it too , don't you ?
Jgn jadi babi sngt

Kadang kadang apa kau ckp tak bnyk
Tp effect dia bnyk
Sedar ?
Tak ? Sedar la skrg
Control sikit
Sikit je

Suka je la apa kau suka dulu
Tak payah tiru byfrnd kau ke
Tak tak
Tak perluuuuuu
Dia suka indie , kau pun nak
Dia suka chocolate , kau pun suka
Dia kata tu comel , kau pun nak kata jugakkkkkkk

Tak bodoh ke tu ?
Tah ,
Tiru tu semua so org tu suka kau lg ?
Tak lah , takkan

Rimas
Semua benda dia suka , dia nak
Semua pn kau nak ikut

Hahahaha
Kadang kadang aku rasa kau nk org pndg kau sorang je
YE , KAU JE

Tah lahh ,
Kadang kadang betul lah
" Dress to impress " ?
Kan ?

Aku tak kata aku tak suka kau langsung
Tp tak suka je

Tah lahhhhhhhhh
Aku ok je
Tak kecoh -_-

Hate

You can't really know a person too well
Right ?

Never say you know me
Like you really do
Never say that

Because you don't
And I don't like it

"I kissed a guy who I barely knew ,"
A : Oh I know you , you wouldn't do that

"I think Im not getting this at all ,"
B : Haha knowing you , you would neverrr get it

"(Not talking at all , for hours)"
C : Walking away , because she / he thinks that they wouldn't like to be disturb


FUCK YOUUUU , PEOPLE
Everyone can change (!)
From not being emotional , to being one

I can changeeeeeeeeeee (!)
From being a sick old bitch , to being a goody two shoes


= I CAN

You don't know me
YOU DON'T (!)

So stop acting like you do
Please , stop

Its not like you know evrythng I think
And evrythng I dont think
It irritates me a lot
Yes

I change my mind like , evry second
How can you say you know me ?
Hah

Don't stare at me like "Are you really Nadia ?"
When I started saying thank you
When I started being nice
When I started liking those bitches

You dont knowwwww why I really did that
Why I dont like saying thank you(s)
Why I dont like to dance
Why I dont like to talk to adult(s)

You just know I dont like doing some thing(s)
But you don't know the reason why

Is that what you called " I know her " ?
Huh ? Huh ?

NO
Not any of my family knows me too well
Not even my bestfriend(s)

Maybe my enemies knows me the best ?
Hah -_- rightttttttt

Yr Point ?

How selfish can you be ?
No , really

I am selfish
Eventhough I hate selfish-ers hahaha

On a scale 1 to 10
I think my selfishness is - - - -- - - - just 4 ?
Hahahaha

Ye lahhhhhhh

But really , Im only demandingly selfish with guys
I knowww
But thats a good thing right ?

Hahah
I've been cursed
The curse that wont go off

This is my destiny
Hahahah geli sial kau

Hard I'd Say

" I thought we have no secrets between each other ? "

Haha dont you think that thats stupid ?
Even if you're like friends for as long as 6 years ? 12 or so ?

Think
We cant just tell something like
"I have zits on my vagina ?"

Too much information baby ,
Too much

Hahahaha

Even if we are bestfriends
You cant expect me to tell evrythng
From the littlest thing(s) to the biggest

Sometimes you just cant bear to listen to what they'll respond

All this while , they thought you were emotionless
When one day , you said
" I cried all day yesterday watching The Notebook all over again , "

Dont you think they'll be like
" Wtf ? "
" Did she just said that ? "
" Bapak loserrrrr , "

Haha yeahh
I know

All this while , you talk bad abt the ugliest guy in yr class
And when suddnly you had a crush on him madly
Do you dare to admit that to your friends ?

Ofcourse no ,

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO -_-
Not my friends
Hahaha

Sometimes
There are things
That are better kept private