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AHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (!)

Tak tahan -_-
Ok whtvr

Shish ,
Bodoh laaaaaaah

High Hope(s)

Im scaaaaaaared

I just hope that it was all a lie
Just a lie

Pleaseee ,
GOD IM SO SCAREDEDEDEDED (!)



If its true
If its really going to happen
I might just reconsider it ,
Just might

Pleasseeee , pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
( Im almost as desperate as ever -_- )


And
I promise
That if its really going to happen
I'll not cry

Atleast I can try to control it

: )

7

Wtf was that ?
It seems like I've known him for years

For some reason , I cant stop myself
It overflowed
Out of control

What happened ?
Why ?

He's like a thing , that is so tiny
And once was useless
But it differs from the others

How can it be that hard ?

I was so scared
But I didnt knew it was this strong
Not until today

Not until " ------ ni last "


Am I stupid ?

For crying ?
Or for letting go ?

Maybe , I am
Just maybe


I was surprised myself
Why him ?
Why now ?
Why cry ?

It looks so stupid
Really stupid

But I wont say it is
Bcs I know that its not


Whats left now ?

65/35

Well Tenton tom tom bak , HAHAHA ok geli
Here's all the positivity and negativity I could think of

FOR NOW


Hahahaha


POSITIVITY

• I can learn to be on my own , surviving
• I'd really love to meet other people too
• I wnt to show that they are wrong , saying Im such a weak person
  
• No more " FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUU "
  
• I want to be thinner-er , as they say "Foods are horrible there (!)"
• Somehow I'll pray 5 times a day , sbb ada org kejutkannn HAHAHAHA ok ok not funny
• I'll change them to cool people ? HAHAHAH ok ok not funny too
• More good results ? Hey , they study harder there , maybe I can too
• I'll learn to wash shoe(s) and clothe(s) by myself
• I can search for cute guys for you guys ? Heheheh this is true (!)
• Learn to be more nicer ? OR INSAF TERUS ? O : )
• I'll find out " wHy th3y Lurv3 tO d0 lIk3 tHiS ??? ..... "
• You guys can have SHISHI all by yourselves
  
• ITS A GOOD SCHOOL
• Once in a lifetime opportunity

NEGATIVITY

• I'll learn to be like sw33tgurlz too ? In a more advanced way , haha
• You guys will miss me terribly ? Sampai tknk makan mandi semua , hahahaha
• NO MORE TBOF OUTINGS ( only on school holidays ? )
• I'll be smarter than you guys ?
• There's no negativity la tenton , sozzzz HAHAHAH

There you go ,
Thats all I can think of

And now , I feel like going
Sbb bnyk sngt positivity , thanks to TENTON
Hahaha

I'll add more , when I think of smthng
Or you guys can think for me too

XOXOXOXOXO
Hehehe

Cross The Line

Kenapa tak blh sleepover rmh kwn ?
Kenapa nk klua pn ada limit ?
Kenapa tak blh balik lambat lambat ?
Kenapa tak blh try shisha ?
Kenapa tak blh try smoke ?
Kenapa tak blh tido sampai pkl 3 ptg ?
Kenapa tak blh fly je everyday ?
Kenapa tak blh pegi hospital sendiri ?
Kenapa tak blh ketawa kuat kuat ?
Kenapa tak blh tak siapkan hmwrk ?
Kenapa tak blh lari bogel bogel ?
Kenapa tak blh mix arnd suka suka hati ?
Kenapa tak blh pg party party ?
Kenapa tak blh pg concert concert ?

Kenapa semua mcm tak boleh ?
Hahahaha

Korang ni , tak best ah
" Kita kan remaja "
Kan Nadira en ?

Takkan dah tua baru nk boleh ?
Gila loserrrrrrr -_-

(A) ?

Its like having to choose between a new glider and a new wii
Hahahah
I KNOW

Its haaaaaaaaaard
I want it so bad
But at the same time
I dnt wnt anythng to go dffrnt

?

Haha

I know I'd missed out on many things if I want (A)
But , it wouldnt hurt right ?

I know things would be dffrnt
And I also know that I would be stronger